Renters Agreement

When was the last time you spoke to me.
Not merely the inane soothsaying of your voice
speaking how your day was, but really communicate

It seems yesterday was over a year away
When we talked together
like two strangers determined to know one another.

The secrets rooms within you revealed some notion of truth,
as though the space of your mind was for rent
and I was in the market for a place with a view

Now my key doesn’t fit. I am left homeless,
You were explicit in your notice of eviction
Am I no longer welcome?

Maybe it was always me.
They say communication is a two-way street
In order to form a connection, one must be able to reciprocate.

Is it to late? I came tell you I’m sorry
For all the words I didn’t say.
Except now you are not listening.
Echoed in the silence between us forms a void
Like the space of where you used to be.

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Yin Meets Yang

I knew you were the one.

From the first moment we met, I knew there was something special.
It wasn’t love at first sight, as much as it was the early sunrise climbing the horizon behind a rocky spire.
Sitting in the shadow of the mountain, with a stranger in front of me. I was unable to see the sun directly.

But I saw the light given off from you.
I saw the shadow recede as the light grew.
I knew if I were the dark; I would remain forever untouchable for you.

That should have been my moment of clarity. The moment the lightning flashes and I was struck with the truth. Given illuminated sight to see.
I should have known then. How naive of me, for a moment to believe that the dark and the light could ever find harmony united together.

Separate; the two find a balance like the weightings of a scale. One side equal to the other. How I want to find my way over to your side. The balance is fine and only chaos will ensue were my hopeful cravings met. The scale tipped over, I welcome the chaos that would ensue if you were to just come stand by my side.

I am the darkness. Without you, I am alone. The only thing I know is my darkness deep as a hole. A whole lot of nothing.
On the scale next to you, the nothing becomes me. A caterpillar without a cocoon, it changes and the change is complete.
Remaining a caterpillar, it changes into nothing.

The only balance I seek is you with me.
On the mountaintop, we can have dark and light together balanced precariously.
Two mixing until like a person with two legs wearing pants too small; the two of us start busting in the seams.
The light becomes dark, as the dark becomes light. We can find that harmony, it seems. The darkness is inside, the light is without.
Ripping at the seams of me, I can now see. Both are of me.
The scales are level

Projecting on you, I want what I perceive as outside of me.
Funny that the place I look for the light, is where I project it.
I cover the darkness of you, with the light shining from myself.
You are the same. Looking at yourself, it gets confusing when the only light you see is that which the sun is touching.
You cannot see the sun. So you see yourself as in the darkness.
Join me in the truth, and we can make our own harmony.
A love that holds the power of many forces.
The light with the dark; nothing can stop us

Stay With Me

It was just for one night. Nothing else.
A division in time removed from itself.
No strings attached, only two skins woven one fabric.

The tapestry together we crafted
Unsure whether I prefer the feel of your skin,
Or yours touching mine.

I’ll give in to the night, let the darkness blind.
Gladly giving up sight, since you were my last vision.
We can remove that threads and part ways at the end.

With the sunrise, we will be strangers done dreaming
So come stay with me just for this evening.
This time is finite, so be my friend for a night.

Do You Remember?

Do you remember when we met? It was a cold day. The sun was hiding behind the clouds, the snow was quietly falling. I saw you sitting by the bus. Alone, struggling to keep warm.

I could never forget speaking to you for the first time. You were so friendly, my soul could never get enough of the warm yours radiated out. You smile was brighter than any sun, illuminating everything whose sight it touched. During our first conversation, my heart was loudly flying. I wonder if you heard it; you never hinted that you could.

The time we spent dating, will stay with me forever. The fun that we had seemed to never end. Our evenings together made me wish the days would never end. Months raced by. When I wasn’t with you, time was a blur. In the company of one another, time stood still.

I still recall the exact moment I knew I loved you. Beyond a shadow of any doubt. It was a small thing, yet it changed the entire world, to me. Rushing through the park to the movies; we knew that we were going to be late. You stopped and pointed out the stars that evening. My calls for the tight time schedule went unheeded. We missed that movie. Instead we spent the night watching the stars.

Do you remember when we were married? Our two families together as one. An evening of dancing, and friendship. You looked so beautiful. Nothing had ever been so perfect. I wanted to keep dancing with you forever.

Our life together was blissful. It seemed Fate dealt me the winning hand. Growing old with you was a dream come true. Nothing could ever go wrong. Until that day you were taken away, then the castle collapsed into the sand.

I could never forget the call that I got. Refusing to believe it was true. Stubborn, I was. The reality you were gone never hit me at first. It was at the wake. Seeing you frozen in time, skin an unnatural shade of white. I broke that day. I had to leave, get some air. Be alone with myself. I was selfish. I had left you back in the memorial. Looking so very cold, I’m sorry, I left you all alone.

It’s time for me to go now, I’ve made my peace at last. In this hospital bed, I know my time on this earth is at an end. I’ll be with you again soon. We will never be parted again. Tonight when I see you waiting cold, and alone at that bus stop, I’ll ask you to eternally dance.

Selfish Love

Have you ever been in Love?

Do you even know what True Love feels like?

It’s said Love is the mirror of the Self and that other people are reflections of the Soul staring back in the mirror. You Love someone for being funny, because You enjoy laughing, and being happy. You admire a person for their intelligence because they make You push for new intellectual heights. You respect them for their strength and fortitude because they remind You, deep down, how strong you can be and you ARE.

These are all pieces of yourself you look up to and idealize in others. Through love you extend an aspect of yourself into other people; while at the same time, allows you to accept other people as a part of your Self.

The author Robert Heinland wrote a book called Stranger in a Strange Land, He remarks that “Love is that condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own.”
Ultimately we are all strangers to one another. We all wear masks we are defined by what we do, and how we act. We all live our lives, for the most part, individually with regards to our hopes, and our fears. Each and every one of us are all entirely selfish beings, right down to the most selfless person imaginable.

We are all after our own happiness, chasing after our own dreams, and living our own lives. (or for some of us, living our own dreams, but left forever chasing after our lives). People yearn for a reason to keep moving forward, someone, something… anything.

We search for something to love, whether a person, an animal, an ideal, or a thing, because that love gives us the illusion of a purpose. It creates meaning, and because we are selfish, we crave meaning.

In the end, we become shackled by this selfishness. This idea of who we are, of how we should be, and who you are in relation to who I am. We become chained and restrained in order to keep locked away the pain we feel with the very bonds that have held us back from the beginning. These bonds are illusions, perceptions and deceptions about how things ought to be, and how things are.

What is True Love? Is it the magical fairy tale of a Love that will conquer all and be told throughout the ages? A love that burns so bright it shakes and burns the foundation of the earthly firmament on which we live? People change. Does that love still burn as it once did? When someone falls in love with another person, they are setting themselves up for failure.

Nothing lasts, and if you fall IN love, eventually you fall out of it as well. I’m sure some of you have had bad breakups in the past, or a death of a loved one. As I’m sure you know once the love is gone, whether it is yours or the others, what’s left is pain and suffering.

The Word SIN derives from a Latin word basically meaning ‘guilty’. To commit a sin, is to do a misdeed which causes one to feel guilty and in turn causes pain and suffering from being out of line with one’s own nature. Falling out of love is the biggest SIN of all. Giving up an ex loved one, or not letting go of a departed loved one causes suffering on such a level it can effectively end lives and has led to suicide.

Falling in love is simple; Falling out of love is difficult. From a spiritual or psychological standpoint, falling out of love is essentially turning your back on your Self. In a religious sense, it is to turn your back on God. Regardless of which perspective one takes, it comes down to illusions or delusions and all depends on the perception you have in your mind.

You see, Magic is real, and magic is everywhere in the world. Everything you can see can be magical, because the magic exists only in your mind. Now when I say magic, I’m not referring to some cheap parlour trick involving a rabbit, a hat, and a scantily clad assistant.

There exists one type of magic, which we further separate into two categories. There is black magic, and white magic. White magic is the magic of creation, it is creating illusions and conjuring forth mental images and associations,. When I say don’t think about elephants, some of you will be thinking of elephants. Black magic is magic of destruction, to destroy a pre-existing concept the mind holds. One does not exist without the other.

Words are magical, words hold the power to create, or destroy illusions. A simple example.
If I say that “I read a lot” it might give you the image I am somewhat of an intellectual person.
If I next say “I read only Tabloids and Trashy adult magazines” it may break the previous image, and creates a new, less favourable image in your mind.

As words have power, it is important to select our words carefully. For example, if we look at Falling In and Out of Love, it creates the idea of something external. Something that is outside of your Self, that you submerse yourself IN. It’s like you are a drop of water falling into the ocean of Love. You become swept away and you feel part of something larger, and stronger than a single drop on its own.

Falling in Love is easy because you always were the Ocean, and you’re moving in the direction of how you naturally are. Falling out of love is difficult because it shatters that idea, it moves you away from your natural state.

Because these two phrases create an idea, that love is something external, an ‘other’. Something removed from your Self. Falling out of love causes suffering as a Sin because it implies you are naturally without Love.

Now, most people associate the word SIN with Religion, so let us look at this from a religious perspective. In the Bible, Jesus said “Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love”. So hell is a state of mind, or place in which reside those who abandon or turn their backs on God. Hell, simply put is the absence of God, or Love.

Have you ever been in Love? No, you haven’t, and you never will, because you can’t become a part of something that you already ARE. You ARE Love. Always have been, and always will be, from the beginning, until the end. You are Love, as you are Loved, one and the same. What you love is Life, and you are loved only by your Self.

To see the Truth, look to the love you feel for your family, your friends, your partner… Let that love be a mirror to your Self, and you will see that ultimately, what you love in them is merely a reflection about what you love about your Self. Through these feelings you hold to others, you realize you love them because they are merely a part of YOU, and with love, you see the truth, the two of you are one. Each One of us is All.

Though we may all seem lone drops of water, we are all one Ocean.

And that Ocean is True Love.